Week notes for 2022 week 07.

Monday 14 February to Sunday 20 February 2022. 

It's been a shit week. For the third time in the last few months, my skin's gone bad, it's dried up, and a rash has formed. I then can't sleep and sleep deprivation really messes with my mental health, especially my judgement. So I stop working and get better. 

The first time was caused (or exacerbated) by a new ADHD medication. The second time I'm not sure. And this third time it's a mix of things. More therapy will uncover the reasons, but I suspect a large part is the post 7 month itch. This often happens after I start a new job, especially since I've been in the Civil Service. I just loose interest in what I'm doing. I think my first job in Defra was the only place this didn't happen. 

Anyway, the highlight of the week was seeing my oddson today, Sunday. Because both his parents and Janet & I aren't religious, we've dropped the G and added a d, taking us from godson to oddson. He's a beautiful bundle of joy, which considering the difficult entry he had into the world, is a huge testiment to his parents and their love for him. It got me out the house, stumbling round the park in my sleep deprived way, pushing him around in his buggy. 

I logged onto my work email today and trimmed the inbox so Jen has less to do tomorrow (I think it's her first day back from half-term leave). I don't dredd my job, but it's become pretty obvious that senior delivery manager is not what I'm born to do. Yes, there are parts of the job I love, but there are probably more parts that it turns out I'm apathetic towards. 

I really do thank Jen and MoJ for working with me and giving me the opportunity, but I need to move on. I want to get back to the thing I love doing - community building and managment. Imran, Arfah and I have some ideas for what we'd like to do and we're going to work thru them over the next few weeks. Watch Twitter for more.